Taylor

Something happened today that made me realise that I needed to do something to help my Taylor. She is having a real rough time and I deep down inside do believe it has to do with her Daddy being gone, she is so close to Chris and just misses him terribly. I wasn't sure on this until today, we were at Kmart getting a few bits and she wanted a baby doll so bad that she was screaming on the top of her lungs "I want this baby" over and over while crying. This is NOT Taylor at all, she has NEVER acted like this before. I told her that I wasn't there to buy everyone toys and she needed to earn pocket money and buy it herself. She continued on and on and was so sad saying goodbye to this baby. I secretly wanted to buy the baby but knew it wasn't about the baby really and it would not help me in the near future when it happened again. So I calmly held her hand and walked away with her screaming and pulling me in the other direction, I get her out of the store and get down to her level and sternly tell her she can not act this way and she is going to be in big trouble when she gets home, which obviously made things worse, I should have said nothing.

We drive home and while pulling up on the driveway Chris calls me, as I answer the phone he hears an ear piecing screech and was shocked, and I heard panic in his voice "whats going on, who is that?" he asked. I tell him it was Taylor and he was in disbelief, I told him what was going on and he asked to speak to Taylor. Now we are inside and Taylor has calmed somewhat, he was asking her what the matter was and she said she didn't know. He said why are you crying? Why are you sad? She said "I miss you Daddy," his heart must have skipped a beat but he handled it correctly and told her he misses her too very much but she needed to be good for Mummy and he will home soon. She agreed and started to smile down the phone, then immediately she went in the living room and stole Masie's puppy from her and made her cry. I admit it, I yelled at this point I had had enough!! I'm not proud of myself for yelling but it sparked off a conversation me and Taylor needed to have. Before the conversation I told her that she was turning into a naughty little girl and that I wanted my Taylor back, I actually had tears in my eyes and at her level. She just looked at me and started to cry. I took her into the spare room and closed the door, before talking we shared the most wonderful mother and daughter hug, it was really meaningful, it was so tight, it was lovely.

Then we started talking about her behaviour and I told her that I miss my old Taylor, and how much I miss her sweet and kindness. I told her that I loved telling people that I have the best Taylor in the world, that my four year old is fantastic. I told her if she keeps acting this way that I wont be able to tell people this anymore and I will have to tell them my Taylor is naughty and unkind. I really watched my words sink in to her, she is a very smart little girl. She told me she was sorry and she loved me very much, I told her the same and we had another lovely hug. She got right to work and went and cleaned her room without prompting, after that I was sat on the rocking chair and she pulled up the foot rest, smiled and climbed up for a hug. I saw my old Taylor in her eyes and I am hoping she is here to stay. I hate that she is having a tough time, but I know we will get through this.