Baby Steps

Check out this gorgeous little girl!!! Boy is she changing.

If I wrote this post when I planned to, which was about a week ago it would have looked a lot different. I was actually going to take her to see a professional, as you know she has been acting strange in public, and it was becoming a big concern of mine. I spoke to her teacher about it who has also noticed, I asked if this was normal for Kindergartners. She said she has taught Kindergarten for 10 years and only seen it less than a handful of times. She said her behaviour is excessive and she shouldn't be that worried at this age about what other people think. This freaked me out more because she agreed with my thoughts on the matter so I didn't feel like I was exaggerating. Taylor and I have had many chats about how she makes me feel, she hates hurting me but didn't change, in fact it got worse. I started changing myself around her and treating her like one of my daycare kids that I was dropping off at school. Instead of a quick hug and "have a great day sweetheart, I love you", I was saying "Bye Taylor" and walked out. After talking to my Mum I realized that I was taking this too personally and giving it too much attention. It wasn't about me at all really, Taylor was struggling to figure out what was socially accepted when it came to hugs and kisses. So I decided to ignore the behaviour totally and not let her dictate to me what was going on, I gave her her space and wasn't affectionate with her in public but when I held her hand to cross a busy street and she looks embarrassed and yanks it away, that's ridiculous. I grabbed her hand back without even looking at her and held it tight, half way across the road she relaxed and looked like any other 5yr old walking across the road with their Mum. So by giving it no attention at all and giving her boundary's to this kind of behaviour she seems to be coming around. She see's her class mates hugging their parents and holding hands down the street and I think she has figured out that its OK. Today I took her to class like normal and she lifted up her arms shyly so I would pick her up, I did and she held my face and kissed me on the lips. Did I do a happy dance in the middle of the class and ruin the big moment of Taylor taking a huge baby step? NO of course not, I wanted to but I gave her a huge smile and told her to have a lovely day.